Well. Thursday July 14th was a big day. So was Sunday July 16th! I not only went swimming, but I wore a suit that hasn't fit me in years. Thursday I took the kids to an actual water park...Cowabunga Bay. Sunday I was in Georgia and went to Tybee Island Beach with Jason and Connor. (We met up with my 2 brothers and sister-in-law as well.)
AND the milestone part...I didn't wear anything over the top while I was in the water. Not even shorts.
I can't even begin to tell you how nauseous I was about the event. I was pretty self conscious. I know I still have a lot to lose! But I wanted to be proud of where I had come to this point. I'm not going to lie, I wanted reassurance. But did my best to suck it up and act confident. And while I felt like EVERYONE was staring at me, wondering why I wasn't wearing something over my suit...I can bet that most didn't even take the time to notice me.
I went through my camera to see if I got a picture of myself, but I only had pictures of when I had the cover-up on. (I did wear a cover-up on the drive to and from the pool.)
Hopefully I can have build more memories like this. I feel like I've withheld fun activities like this from my kids because of my own insecurities. Now, I'm trying to change it.
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