Holidays

The holiday's suck.

Not the family time.  That's wonderful.

Not the memories I am making with my kids.  Those are great!

Just the food.  It all SUCKS!

It sucks because it's so wonderful.

Why does food have to taste so damn good sometimes?  TROUBLE, that's what it causes!

For one reason or another I have been a slacker lately when it comes to attending my WW meetings.  And I just realized this Thursday will be no different.  I have to take my son to the doctor...he's got some medical things going on.

So, another week goes by.  My scale is hovering.  Some days a bit higher, other days a bit lower.  I need to get my rear-end moving though.  I'm very tired of this place I'm at.  I've been stagnant for far too long.  And I know the only thing to get me past the hump is some exercise.  So my goal for this week...move!!!

Missed again

I had to miss weigh in again.  I HATE that!  We have had a sick, sick household.

The good news?  My scale is still showing me in the 150's!  :)

The other good news?  I had been competing in a friendly weight loss competition from August until Halloween.  There was a good sized group of us, we all paid $$ to enter.

AND I WON!  Barely.  But, I won!  I worked hard for that too!

So what did I win??  $300 plus a lot of other awesome perks.  (I don't remember them all, but I remember they are really cool!)

So what am I going to do with the $300??  Well, the logical side of me says tuck it away.....Christmas is coming.  The selfish and frivolous side of me says I'm going to get my hair done, I want a sexy new outfit.

I guess we will see which side of me wins out.....

Wardrobe

So remember how I was complaining about my wardrobe...or lack there of?

Well there's some benefit to complaining on the blog.  There is also some benefit in humbling myself and admitting my true size at the moment for all the blogging world to see.  (Or for the 3 people who read this...)

You see...I have an absolutely fantastic neighbor who also knows the woes of losing weight.  She has dropped some weight and is looking SMOKIN' right now.  She was kind enough to offer some of the clothes she had that are in my current size!

I came home with an entire sack full of brand new (to me) clothes.  (Seriously, they looked like they should still have the tags on them!)

There is really nothing better when you are losing weight than to have clothes that actually fit!  Even if it's just a few...or even if it's just for a moment.  It is that satisfaction of having things fit the way they should!  And as fantastic as that satisfaction is, it is hard to justify buying new clothes each size of the way....my pocket book would have a fit!

So, Marissa...thank you.  I LOVE them, and had a mini-fashion show in my bedroom the other night feeling all fancy in your old, my new clothes.

Oh boy

As much as I was sabotaging myself earlier, now I've apparently made up for it.  The scale and I are friends again!  So much so that I actually saw a number I haven't seen in I DON"T KNOW HOW LONG!

159...

I had to blink.  Twice.  Then I had to step off, zero out the scale.  And then I stepped back on.  (and I repeated this pattern probably 5 times.)

(and if you think I'm joking, I'm not.)

Sabotage.

Why do I keep doing this to myself?  Really?  Why?!

I get almost to a new place that I'm so excited about.......ALMOST.  Then I self sabotage with cookies, and ice cream, and donuts, and cheesecake.

Why?

I could just smack myself I am so angry!

I was inches...INCHES away from being considered a healthy weight at my weekly weigh in.  You think that would make me more careful!  You think that would make me work harder!  Especially with how freaking long it's taken these 10 pounds to fall off!

But no.  I'm an idiot human.

A very frustrated human that regrets turning to food the last few days.  Now I've got to bust my rear end and try and salvage this week.....

 

Compliment

I recently bumped into an old friend. I smiled at her but she didn't say hi like I would have expected. So, I went over and approached her.

It was only then I realized why she had ignored me.

She instantly said "oh my! Alisha I didn't even recognize you! You are so small!!"

I laughed and didn't think much else of it.

Until yesterday that is.

This time thankfully the person recognized me because I didn't even see him or his wife. He told me he would have never recognized me if he hadn't seen my recent picture on Facebook.

The point of this? I think I should take those as compliments, right? I guess I still think of myself as looking the same to people. I guess I had no idea what effect weight has on how a person looks...

What does it look like?

I made it to weigh in today at WW after all.  

And can I say, I am SO GLAD I DID!!

Today I hit another couple milestones.

First:  I hit my 2nd 10% on WW.

Second:  I have now lost over 70 pounds since my biggest!  SEVENTY!

I weighed in at 162.8

That is 2.8 away from "healthy"! 

So, to give you an idea of what SEVENTY POUNDS looks like, I give you:

That's right, a baby polar bear weighs about 70 pounds!

Or..

How about a fireplace?  Wanna strap that to your back and load that around with you all day every day?

No?  Okay, well how about this one...

That's right!  A Florida Panther weighs approximately 70 pounds!

Or...some might say I've been just full of hot air:

A large tank of helium = 70 pounds

How about this friendly bird:

I have lost more than this bird weighs.

Guess how much this scooter weighs...

70 pounds!

Lastly:

A 10 year old girl weighs on average 70 pounds.

I freaking lost a 10 year old girl!

SEVENTY POUNDS!

Stay tuned...next week I'll be setting my "lifetime" goal with weigh watchers.  

I still have a hard time believing it is me, that I accomplished this.

I tend to talk it down sometimes.  

I tend to brush off the compliments.

That is, until I have a jaw dropping moment when I hit a milestone like this!

70 FREAKING POUNDS!

And really...the 150's right around the corner.

Can that be?

My husband won't even know who I am...he has NEVER seen me in the 150's.

Oh boy.  Sometimes I have to pinch myself.

Is this real?  Am I dreaming?

Pluggin in.

Right now our family is on a bit of a roller coaster with some things happening with my son.  Don't really want to go into too much detail on this blog (since it's public) (and since I detailed it fully on our family blog).

The reason I mention it is because typically when I'm on a roller coaster like this, I throw caution in the wind and get careless with my eating.  I'm not going to lie, it might have happened yesterday.  I might have ignored all that I've learned to this point.  I'm not sure the scale damage it did.  I would say that I'll find out tomorrow, but I might have to miss my weekly WW weigh in.

The thing I have learned is that life happens.  And through life, we have to live.  So I might have turned to food last night for a bit of comfort.  But today my head is on straight again.  I post this to acknowledge that I am not perfect along this journey.  And I don't expect to become that way.  I make mistakes with life, with food, with people all the time.  The important thing I take from it all is learning from those moments so I can become a better person along the way.

So here's to the roller coaster we call life...CHEERS!

Weekly Weigh In

165.4!
(Down 1.8 pounds)

(I'm 1.4 pounds away from my official WW 2nd 10%, going to hit that next week!)

And I have decided on my WW Goal Weight.  (Which, mind you, is different from my actual FINAL goal weight....I'll blog more about that tomorrow.)