I have neglected my little blog. (And coincidently, I have neglected myself.)
I've been in a funk.
We went up to SLC to visit family a few weeks back and ever since I came home I haven't been myself. I've found myself diving head first into candy bowls, I've found myself making excuses as to why I don't need to run. I've found myself averaging less and less steps daily.
Then, I realized: THIS HAS GOT TO STOP!
This is exactly what I did last year. Halloween came and went and I decided that I could move less and eat more. The weight came on and I did nothing about it for 7 months. This is exactly what I do when I am SOOOOOOO close to what I have considered impossible for quite some time now.
You see, I have always said I wanted to see 145 on the scale. But I never really knew if that was possible. So each time I get close (this year, I've been closer than EVER!) I enter into self-sabotage mode.
So here I am. Now. Again, losing the weight I've already lost. Luckily, I caught it this time. I am only up a few. And now I'm working back down to where I need to be...back to where I thought was impossible.
Because ultimately, my goal for January 1, 2013....to NEVER have to make another resolution to lose weight again!
I've got some work to do, but I have put my head down and I am gonna get there!
Days like this help.....(short story that I definitely want to remember)...
Today I set out to run 7 miles. (My longest run yet in my training for the 1/2 marathon.) I was feeling good, a little chilly, but good. That is, until mile 5 hit me. At 5.5 miles I started the uphill portion of the run. And I think it was knowing that the remainder of my run would all be uphill that had me worried. I was struggling. I was thinking about walking.
I honestly thought in my head 'who would even know if I walked a portion right now."
It was at that moment that 3 city workers stopped the work they were doing on a golf course and came to the edge of the street and began clapping. (Well, 2 were clapping and 1 was giving me a thumbs up and yelled "You can do it!")
It just so happens that at that exact moment, the lyrics to the song in my ears were "I have been blessed, and it feels like I found my way. I thank God for all I've been given at the end of every day. I have been blessed."
It's safe to say that my eyes began filling with tears. I realized how far my body has come. I realized that just back in July I couldn't even run 1.5 MINUTES without dying! Now I was running miles and miles.
I felt blessed.
And I finished the run strong.
I love the tender mercies that get me through the hard times in life...it makes me feel not so alone even when difficult challenges lie ahead. (in my runs, and in my life in general!)
Hopefully you can take a step back and find the tender mercies in your life as well, because I promise they are there!