What does it look like?

I made it to weigh in today at WW after all.  

And can I say, I am SO GLAD I DID!!

Today I hit another couple milestones.

First:  I hit my 2nd 10% on WW.

Second:  I have now lost over 70 pounds since my biggest!  SEVENTY!

I weighed in at 162.8

That is 2.8 away from "healthy"! 

So, to give you an idea of what SEVENTY POUNDS looks like, I give you:

That's right, a baby polar bear weighs about 70 pounds!

Or..

How about a fireplace?  Wanna strap that to your back and load that around with you all day every day?

No?  Okay, well how about this one...

That's right!  A Florida Panther weighs approximately 70 pounds!

Or...some might say I've been just full of hot air:

A large tank of helium = 70 pounds

How about this friendly bird:

I have lost more than this bird weighs.

Guess how much this scooter weighs...

70 pounds!

Lastly:

A 10 year old girl weighs on average 70 pounds.

I freaking lost a 10 year old girl!

SEVENTY POUNDS!

Stay tuned...next week I'll be setting my "lifetime" goal with weigh watchers.  

I still have a hard time believing it is me, that I accomplished this.

I tend to talk it down sometimes.  

I tend to brush off the compliments.

That is, until I have a jaw dropping moment when I hit a milestone like this!

70 FREAKING POUNDS!

And really...the 150's right around the corner.

Can that be?

My husband won't even know who I am...he has NEVER seen me in the 150's.

Oh boy.  Sometimes I have to pinch myself.

Is this real?  Am I dreaming?

50 is nifty!

This morning, my scale showed me at 172ish.  (can't remember the ounces)

That means I am now 50 pounds lighter than I was in April!

50!  That's more than my little Monkey weighs!!!!

Now I just gotta keep on movin, maybe by Thursday I'll see that number in the 60's I'm dreaming about!

Weekend Adventures

No.  I haven't fallen off the wagon.  Quite the opposite actually!

This weekend my parents came down for a visit.  I love when they come down!  They were so much help this weekend!  From getting me a sprayer to combat my massive weeds, to helping clean my house, helping do my laundry, to fixing my dishwasher that broke!  It helped so much to finish getting things ready for the new school year!

While they were down here, I didn't exercise.  I could have.  I should have.  But I didn't.  I was lazy.  I was worried the scale would punish me.  Especially after we went out to celebrate at Red Robin on Thursday night...and we had pizza...and pie...

Ya, I was not very "good" this weekend.

But, this morning my scale liked me.  I'm down, getting closer and closer to the magical 60's!

You might be wondering why we were celebrating.  Good question!  We found out Thursday night where Mr. B's territory will be.  He was placed in Salt Lake.  This means he will be home on weekends, this means I will be able to continue and finish what I've worked so hard for...Nursing School.  We couldn't have asked for anything better considering our circumstances!

Today my chicklets are nervous.  They start school tomorrow.  I know they will love it, but it's always scary starting something new.  There are a lot of "what-ifs" to new things!  I was thinking of what they are feeling...Tata asked "What if I'm not good at 1st grade, what if I can't do it?"  Of course I reassured her over and over.  But, it made me think of myself along this weight loss journey.  I have often had the thought, "What if it's too late.  What if I can't loose the weight I so badly want to lose."  Does this sound familiar to anyone else?  If so, I will answer it the same way I answered Tata's questions.

You CAN do this.  You WILL do this.  How do I know this?  Because I know you.  I know you are smart.  You will succeed because on days when it gets hard, and you are scared you will come to me and I will hold your hand through it.  We will do this together!

And with that thought, I have decided it's time to make this private blog public.  (Kind of scary.)  This has been my safety net.  This has been the place I am free to write what I feel, very openly.  I'm not planning on changing that.  I'm not making the blog public for attention.  Instead, I wonder if there is someone out there that might need their hand held, and that can hold my hand on hard days.  This is a very personal journey, but it can only be made by having the support of others.

So, if you stumble upon my blog and you wonder if you can do it too....I will repeat my advice:

You CAN do this.  You WILL do this.  How do I know this?  Because I know you.  I know you are smart.  You will succeed because on days when it gets hard, and you are scared you will come to me and I will hold your hand through it.  We will do this together!

Dropping

Remember how I really, really, really, REALLY want to hit the 70's!?  Well, today I saw 179.9!  I'll take it!  :)

I can't say this enough...I can not remember the last time I saw 70's on the scale!  Honestly!  <sigh>  This just keeps getting better!

Hopefully by tomorrow morning, I will be able to see something similar on the WW scale.

Side note...I walked 16,444 steps yesterday!!  Today, my calves are burning!

Memory Milestone

I do have to record a milestone for myself.  Usually, when my kids want to go swimming I DREAD it!  I'm talking....do the whole psych myself up for it routine!  And even then, I usually wear shorts and a shirt to cover my body.  THAT'S how uncomfortable I have been.

Well.  Thursday July 14th was a big day.  So was Sunday July 16th!  I not only went swimming, but I wore a suit that hasn't fit me in years.  Thursday I took the kids to an actual water park...Cowabunga Bay.  Sunday I was in Georgia and went to Tybee Island Beach with Jason and Connor.  (We met up with my 2 brothers and sister-in-law as well.)

AND the milestone part...I didn't wear anything over the top while I was in the water.  Not even shorts.

I can't even begin to tell you how nauseous I was about the event.  I was pretty self conscious.  I know I still have a lot to lose!  But I wanted to be proud of where I had come to this point.  I'm not going to lie, I wanted reassurance.  But did my best to suck it up and act confident.  And while I felt like EVERYONE was staring at me, wondering why I wasn't wearing something over my suit...I can bet that most didn't even take the time to notice me.

I went through my camera to see if I got a picture of myself, but I only had pictures of when I had the cover-up on.  (I did wear a cover-up on the drive to and from the pool.)

Hopefully I can have build more memories like this.  I feel like I've withheld fun activities like this from my kids because of my own insecurities.  Now, I'm trying to change it.