Surprised

I feel I haven't been completely honest and open with you, my friends.

In fact, I feel like it's been hard to share what's REALLY going on around here.  

I feel like I've been keeping a massive secret.

Probably, because I have.

That's right folks, SURPRISE!  (I know we were!)  (Actually, shocked would be a better description!)  (And we still are.....)

I hadn't planned on "coming out" with my big secret quite yet.  But, it's hard to explain to you why I'm too tired to get in my training runs (or any exercise for that matter).  And let's be honest...this is our 4th rodeo, and the belly just doesn't hide the peanut like it did in previous pregnancies.  Plus, my poor Red Kitty came in last night and asked if I was dying because I had been in bed all day.  We figured it was time to share the news, and the kids couldn't be more excited!  

I am still trying to wrap my head around this!  This was not how I had planned my last semester of school, this was not how I planned 2013!  You see, I had a lot of plans for 2013.  (most of them completely selfish...)  Including:  reaching my goal weight, running a half marathon in January, running another half marathon in Hawaii, zip lining in Hawaii, graduating nursing school, taking a trip over to San Francisco to watch my Giants play, running a full marathon in October...and so the list could continue.

But plans change.

So while I won't be doing a half marathon in Hawaii any longer, and I surely won't be running a full marathon, and I probably won't make it over to San Fran, zip lining is definitely out, and I will no longer be able to focus on achieving goal weight status (until after August)... 

I WILL graduate nursing school.  

And I still plan on the trip to Hawaii to celebrate in May! 

(because my pregnancy will NOT have any complications because our tickets are already paid for....)

I plan to have a healthy pregnancy (something I've never had...)

(Because I've always started each pregnancy overweight or obese...but not this time!)  :)

I also still plan to run the half marathon here in St. George in a little over a week.  In fact, I just registered for it today!  

I honestly took a lot of time the last few weeks debating if I should run the half on January 19th.  You see, I would never want to do anything to harm the pregnancy.  I talked with my doctor about it, I talked with Jason about it.  Here's what I've decided:

I am going to race.  The course itself stays open for up to a 16 min/mile pace that day.  Shoot, I can walk faster than that if I need to!  Ultimately, I need to do this.....for me.  (and I'll share more about why in another post...)  No, I won't be pushing to finish as fast as I can like I had originally planned.  But I need to cross that finish line.  

Just because the plan changes in life doesn't mean you have to give up....