I've also come to a conclusion:
No matter how much weight I lose, once I am at a standstill (maintaining the weight) I go right back to feeling fat as ever!
In my head I try to be rational...I try to tell myself that I am still amazing for losing all the weight I have lost. I try to reassure myself I am not as big as I see myself in my head.
But slowly, the negative self-talk creeps back into my head. All the feelings I had when I was at my biggest are there...and THAT is how I see myself in the mirror! It's a battle. I have to fight with myself everyday in the mirror because I don't believe what I see. I have to fight with myself because I catch myself calling me horrible things like fat.
What scares me is the thought I might always be like this. I am scared I will never truly feel satisfied, I might never feel small.
I hate how just a few months ago I felt small, skinny, and awesome for being the size I am now. Today, I guess I have gotten used to this size and I'm right back to feeling fat, and lazy.
I hate the mind games...
Does it ever get better?? Please tell me it does...
